Understanding Perspective
What’s up you guys. Just wanted to type a short blog out today. A little feedback that I have been getting is that I should work start Video Logging or at most getting in front of a camera and talking. Which is actually something I used to do about 5 years ago. The reason I stopped was mainly the fact that I was 20 years old and honestly the advice I was pushing out in life as relevant as it was. Who the hell knows much at 20 about life?? But reality speaking I should have continued honestly. Maybe not so much on the arbitrary of life but what was actually happening in my life at the time. That would of been more impact-full than what ever I was preaching on social media. But beyond that, this blog/website I created was just for that purpose actually. Part of me got down on myself for not continueing the path that I truly wanted to purse. At the time my influences were people who were older than me that were farther than me suggesting I take the easy road versus the high road. I respected these mentors to death and they were very blatant with me. They were also very smart people that were greatly successful for what they were pursing. The common themes that were told to me were,
“where is your track record? You’re x age and haven’t made anything for yourself and you want to make a difference in other peoples lives? “
“Get a college degree focus on getting a stable job otherwise you shouldn’t ever think about having a family”
” You have already wasted 2 years out of high school. If you don’t go back to school soon you might end up working for retail for the rest of your life?”
There’s more to these common themes many people have told me over and over again. I guess a little back story to me would make things easier to connect the dots on this.
I am someone who hates school. That and I hate being told what to do. But first off I hate school but I’m not the type that just says “Oh fuck school Ima make money instead” or ” Fuck school ima do me ( and not know the hell that even means to begin with.)”. I genuinely hate school because I find it to be such a waste of time and money PERIOD. I have thought this way since after my freshman year in high school. The two things I knew were this. Instead of being at school I could read what I wanted to read not out of boredom but out of a desire to learn things that were practical. Two I knew I could spend my energy elsewhere to reap more fruit than I could in school. I knew I would never remember my history class subjects or geometry. I could spend more time working and then doing sports after school which I could actually see a result of the work put in. For those who do not know me I started working at 15 years old as a high school classroom cleaner. I started sports right around the same time. The only thing I would take from school would be the connections that I would make and keep in touch with. I became the student who would be walking onto the field towards school right as the ending school bell rang and my friends would be going home and they would ask me where I was or what I was doing. I simply told them I had practice or I had work . It was quite simple for me. By this time I knew school wasn’t my thing. I wanted to grow mentally, physically, emotionally and socially more than anything. For some reason that to me was such a high priority than what school could ever bring me. Can you make those advancements in school? To a degree yes but time and time again I don’t see that with the individuals who graduate college. I have had the pleasure of working with a lot of college graduates and college attendees. A lot of them are missing a good portion of understanding themselves or simply don’t know what to do with their life after without the immense structure. Now not all i have a lot of friends who are massively successful because of their schooling. You know what? They were studious people to begin with and they were like that even in the 6th grade! That for them was who they were and that’s why they went and pursed big things in college. Not an easy degree a degree that specified their field of interest and you had to have that degree otherwise you wouldn’t be able to get their type of job.
Let’s not Misunderstand things
By no means am I saying school is bad. For 80% of people maybe it’s necessary. I grew up differently. I had to live my life differently. I didn’t get to be like everyone else due to my circumstances growing up. I was insanely blessed to be around the right crowd my entire life. Which lead me to where I am now. I am nothing fancy though. For my life is still focused on those core beliefs I had in High school. I maybe 25 now. But the experience and knowledge I have amassed to this point I would never trade for it. For me now is to just keep trying things. Just on a higher scale than I was for the past 7 years now out of high school. Hence where this finally makes its wrap around back to my original topic. Where I should have never cared and chose to purse what I wanted. I drove myself into a massive depressive state going back to school and trying to stay at a job that paid me well enough for me to go to school. My life felt like a living hell in its own. School is still something I play with though. That is in a process called online schooling and it’s called one class a semester or every other semester. Heh. As much as I hate school it is still a back drop for me if anything were to ever happen. Which in all honesty part of me is telling me to burn the bridge with it. Reason being for what I would want to purse would take the level of effort my very smart friends who have great degrees would have to do. Except I would go in debt and Im massively against that. That to me is a wait and see ordeal.
Where the hell does this all tie into?
Doing what ever the hell it is want that’s what. So much for a short blog post I guess. Beyond that since that was a massive side literature that I was not expecting to have had to been poured out in such fashion. My blog posts may get shorter or they may get longer. Chances are I originally had the idea to shorten my blog posts and Vlog hard to avoid the two hours it tends to take to develop these blog posts. But for me The choice of wording is actually easier for me in a blog posts some days. Just because I have always enjoyed writing in general. Talking is more of a new skill I learned to utilize over the past 4 years of being in Sales. I love making videos too but emotionally sometimes one over the other is definitely needed. So I guess really we shall see how this all plays out. Honestly I am creating everything on a whim. I don’t do great with structured ideas or topics. I always end up creating a side literature whether it is massively relevant or not. But beyond that look out for my v logs that will be uploaded on youtube and repost on this site! Peace out you guys!
Steven Personius 